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Working On: organizing my oc roster!
Working On: organizing my oc roster!
This is the result of watching too many gothic victorian movies in a row. My most simply designed character but I really like how she ended up! Her name is Veronika Whitlock, a ghost who was once a painter...An apparition that is stuck haunting the mortal realm because she's fallen in love! With whom? I have no idea yet lol. Veronika was created mostly out of an "aesthetic craving" that needed to be satisfied. (Does that make sense!?)
She doesn't not have a super deep or involved storyline/universe yet. I could always stick her in an existing story (like in my Mea Culpa-verse as there is supposed to be a "monster of the week" format until the plot really kicks off...) but honestly, I like her a wee bit too much to have her "killed" off n_n
Anyways, I thought to have her one-sided love interest be a florist for a funeral home (woman) or a funeral home diretor (man)...Maybe both!? And have the two be siblings. Hmmm. Decisions, decisions.
Wow! iIt's been almost 6 months since my last art log. Obviously, I have not been drawing a lot lately because of Life™, but I am getting back into the swing of things. Making a Milky dressup doll has been on my to-do list for two or three years, but I never had the inpsiration or motivation to get it done. But the dollmaker listing is a thing now, and a lady yearns to have her own doll up on the internet.
I've been feeling very nostalgic for KiSS (kisekae) dolls. I never made my own as a kid as I was more focused on making my own stories with the kamishibai viewer. I have no idea if these programs will work on modern OS but I'll give it a go sometime...maybe we can bring these back, haha.
Anyways! Enough rambling. Here is what's I've gotten drawn so far. It doesn't look like much but I swear it feels like I've been working on her forever. I'm still unsure if I want to shade everything or just keep it flat.
i'm on a pixel art kick. it's so much fun. i want to do one of these pixel diorama pieces for all of my ocs but that would take 1000 years.
i drew diesel as a human. why is he shirtless? idk it's fun drawing shirtless guys rn lol
thinking bout posting speedpaints on my site for archival purposes. this is a WIP of an oc name juliette. isn't she cute? i'm really enjoying doing pixel art lately.
look at how much i've drawn lately...PATHETIC!
i tried to draw some new pieces but i'm artblocked so hard its not even funny. i tried to draw some husbando art but it was all stupid and ugly lmao so i gave up. i have a hard time drawing fanart anyways because... if they don't look even 5% similar to how they are portrayed in the respective media, i hate it 100000%. i also tried to chip away at finishing the rendering on my hallowtine art but also gave up quickly because im tired and im not finding coloring fun right now n_n
the only decent thing i've drawn was a quick frieren fanart sketch and it's just OK. i should study, but im lazy....i'm full of complaints and excuses ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧ hopefully this flower challenge will spark something in me!
OK so i know february isn't over yet but i feel like i won't do any more studies this month. i have drawn 38 days in a row. not going to lie, it's starting to get a little tough. i'm not sure if it's been detrimental to draw daily or not, i'm not feeling creatively lately...i've been trying to think of a composition for the valentine's day challenges but i'm coming up with nothing!!!! maybe i'm just tired! i don't know! ;_;
i've recently started a challenge - to draw everyday! what makes this different than my multiple failed inktober attempts? well, firstly, it won't take place during the busiest time of year for me and also...there will be some sort of accountabilty (in the form of a streak counter), and most importantly: there are no strict rules or prompts to follow. i like that all that counts is i draw something for at least 30 mins a day, and yes! working on the same piece counts.
i like that this platform is fairly anonymous though my art was instantly clocked by some friends before i even made mention of doing this challenge LOL. and i like that there are no follower counts or "likes" or any metric of social media ~value~.
anyways my goals for this challenge:
kind of a long list, no? but i'm excited to compare my work from the beginning of this year to the end of the year's stuff. fingers crossed i'll make some good progress.
earlier, i redrew a very old art piece. though i'm not happy with the outcome, i'm happy to see my improvement. feels good!
posting this on 12.03 bc i forgot to earlier heh
i wish i could draw more lately! all of my brain power has been redirected to my work training. good news: i'm almost done! yay! anyways, i had a rare moment of needing to draw, and what inspired me? well. i guess it would my need to yume. and yume hard. LOL.
i doodled up some OCs: donovan and eileen. donovan is 100% tailored to my very specifc and stupid tastes in husbandos. if you know me enough, i guess you can recognize what i like.
i showed eileen to one of my art friends and she was like "is that not usagi? your oc charlotte?? cygne???" and well like. my favorite character design traits on women are really long dark hair, fair skin, and beauty marks.....
anyways, i always have to put blood and edge in my ocs/art if it's not something explicity kawaii. it's a disease i've suffered from since girlhood and i guess it'll never go away haha. i'm still trying to learn how to draw donovan in a way that completely satisfies me. it's hard for me to draw non-uke type men...but i'm trying.
i get brainrot really easily when it comes to my ocs, so of course i had to commission some art of them. check these out, they are so beautiful...:3~~~
These are by Amai, who I've commissioned like 3 times in the past. I'm going to save some money and splurge on a nice couple piece later! ╰(*°▽°*)╯
10/11 edit: whoops instead of working on different prompts, i just finished up milky. mr milky? milker? (lol)
Okay but why is he actually cute....For today, I genderswapped Milky and sketched her into an uke (lmao) I actually think this has potential so I want to finish rendering it eventually. He's so cute and looks annoying...♥
Oops! I'm already a bit behind. (I was focusing on dealing with my closet and mountain of clothes after work the past few days -v-) I'm going to try and catch up when I can. I chose to do pixel art (again) for day 4. It's unfinished though. Milky & Diesel in school uniforms because why not!
I also skipped around the prompt list and did day 12 (meme) because I wanted something fun and easy to do. Jeremiah & Edie in that alien meme thing that was trending on Twitter earlier:
One of these days I will do a fully rendered piece...
I drew my Chobits OC. Her name is Ceres! I don't really draw her but I decided to for OC-tober because my other fandom OCs have art already. I didn't finish it but I will try to in between other drawings. I just got lazy (as usual!)
Unsurprisngly, the easiest OC of mine to draw is Milky! I had some extra time today at work so I did some pixel art. Turned out pretty cute but because I was rushing, I forgot to draw her puffy sleeves. Maybe I'll go back and fix it but for now I'm satisfied!
I sketched out a piece for Charlotte. I like the composition of this one so I will definitely revisit it at a later date (or perhaps work on it off & on for a bit?) I just don't want to burn out...I'll probably edit this entry with some more blabbing in the morning. It's late and I've gotta sleep!!!
today's warmup was really quick and messy. i decided to sketch a very old oc. she's a magical girl (pretty obvious i think haha) but i cant remember her name at all...i made her when i was a child. i remember being soooo proud of this piece back in the day.
it's always fun to go back and revisit old art and characters. (years later and i still cant draw shoes LOL)
i'm doing my bi-yearly bloodborne playthrough and it made me nostalgic for a fandom oc i created when i first played the game back in 2015. the brainworms infected me again, so i decided to give Cygne (swan in French) a fresh coat of paint!! i'd post her original design, but frankly it was quite ugly and overly complicated (lol) so it's a little embarassing. i've fallen in love with her again....my scarlet nun ♥ she's a member of the Executioner covenant and hates vilebloods.
an excerpt from her bio: "Cygne embraced her new role with a fervor that shocked even her fellow Executioners. Beneath her demure and devout exterior lay a violent and unyielding spirit, fueled by a divine wrath. She became known as the Scarlet Nun, a title that reflected both her crimson habit and the blood she spilled in the name of justice."
i will work on coding a layout and page for her in my oc notebook, but i'd like to draw her some more new art and possibly trade/commission some!!!
i was streaming while i was sketching her new ref sheet to some of my art friends, and i got asked: "lapin, why are most of your characters crazy or murderous women?" LOL. it probably does reveal quite a bit of myself...a lot of my female characters are pious, demure/shy, or even unhinged women that are written with horror influences. they can be murderous or obssessed with revenge. they have a rage burning deep within them. i like drawing and writing them that way, it's a little cathartic. i was raised by a religious mother, & expected to be prim and proper and devout—to always defer to God (and to men.)
in a way, i have a rage burning deep within me, too. i like express my feelings about traumas, religion, the/my female experience with.... art and writing. it's a little silly, i guess, to create and draw stories about pretty and angry women, seemingly docile or expected to be good, but so consumed with a righteous fury that they kill. i like to be pretty and good too, and i struggle with that fact as i burn inside.
WHEW! that was much deeper than expected for a mere art blog haha. i know my characters and reasonings may make some roll their eyes or cringe. but hey, i am cringe and i am free!
one day i may share my writing and more personal art works on this site....some day...
i finally did it! i've been meaning to update charlotte's & nathaniel's designs for months (probably a year or two at this point tbh v_v) but i've been so busy with other things or just plain lazy. i'm very very pleased with how they turned out. im still attached to their original designs even though they are quite..amateur-ish, clunky and over designed. very inspired by animu and the things i was very into (trinity blood, etc) when i first designed them as a teenager.
kinda weird that they went years and years without any kind of refreshing...but even though the old designs are a little ugly to me (now), i like them because it makes me think of how far ive come in designing ^_^
take a look! (and please excuse the very old art):
vs now:
i wanted to keep some of the original charm points that i really liked, while adding some flair and functionality while ALSO simplifying. kind of a challenge but i think i suceeded! i can't wait to draw them again. i also need to commission and trade for some new art in these designs. exciting!!
posting from my backlog a bit but i finally got around to finishing my fursona. i made her a while ago when my friends in one of my servers were talking/sharing their fursonas but mine wasn't finished so i didn't bother sharing. but finally i had a little bit of time to throw some colors down. so tada! behold keeks!
initially i wanted to make her really cutesy (like the idealized version of myself...but tbh Milky already exists) so i decided to make her true to how i am irl. i really DO own that "born to shit, forced to wipe" shirt haha! it's my treasured lounge shirt.
anyways i gave her my mannerisms and how i dress regularly instead of putting her in something really aesthetic and cute. irl when i dress nicely, i spend the entire day thinking about wearing my pajamas...i chose the harlequin rabbit breed because i thought it was a cute play on me being mixed race. i think she may be one of the more simply designed characters i have, but i still think she's really cute. i want to draw her with some other fursonas soon. fingers crossed i have the time and energy to!💞
teehee oops. i totally fell off the wagon trying to keep up with posting daily drawtober sketches. i have been doing them at least! but i've been kind of lazy when it comes to updating my logs and diaries lately. i think i may do a bulk upload of sketches instead..maybe put them in a collage or something. whatever requires the least effort LOL
anyways i've been itching to draw more of my male ocs. i was going to start working on a cutesy piece of dior with her target?friend?victim? xinyi. but i hated how it was looking...a grown man... in poofy shorts and long socks... it looks cute on a chibi but he looked ridiculous when i drew him in my regular style....so i decided to update his look:
much better! at least to me. now i can continue drawing him getting bullied by dior >:)
i think i will go and look through my ocs and update some of the outdated designs. i struggle with wanting to have clean and rendered ref sheets but not having the time or energy for that so i will probably stick with a sketchy style for now. i think it looks okay!
i've spent the past couple of weeks trying to furiously update art refs in time for art fight..but im slow........i tell myself every time that i should try and simplify my designs because:
1. i don't draw my characters a lot of the time because im lazy and they can be hard to draw
2. i feel bad when other artists draw them v.v..like i feel like they are pains to draw and they're mine, how do other artists feel when they dont even have any emotional attachment to my stupid anime barbie dolls T_T
but i really love ornate and detailed designs...sometimes i worry about have an "overdesigned" sense of style for my characters because ive seen criticism towards other artists about it but idk. i just cant vibe with simple t-shirt and jeans ocs. this is why some of my other ocs stay in their dollhouse, dusty and neglected...〒.〒 i guess i should embrace my annoying taste
anyways, recently i am not so satisfied with my art. every time i reach a point to where i feel proud or even like my style, in a few weeks i will hate it again!!! i find myself going back and forth from wanting a painterly style or a smooth style...but..
im also loving my ipad and procreate, the portability and stuff but im really not liking how my line art looks. when i look at my TH gallery, i can tell exactly what art i've done via wacom cintiq or ipad. maybe its the brush im using but, on the ipad my lines seem blurry and more thick. which i hate. i love thinner, crisp lines for my own art, but maybe the issue is that i'm drawing on canvases that are way too big and when i resize them the lineart gets borked. idk i guess i will fiddle around with it more!
i want to finish up the 'meet the artist' meme thing i started but i dont have anywhere to post it but on my site, so i'll probably just stick it somewhere on /art.html
happy birthday to charlotte & nathaniel!!!
last week was the birthday of my demon hunting pair!! i've had them for so long, they've haunted my brain for soooo many years and have undergone many story changes and updates. i think the current iteration is the longest lasting (for charlotte at least LOL, im planning on overhauling mr. valentine's ref to add longer hair like in this drawing and adding more victorian flourish to his outfit. & scaling back on the dracula/vampire influences i got really tired of men comparing him to lelouch lmfao :cry:) i wanted to draw a nice piece for my fictional brain-children because i really truly love them. they were first created when i was a teen, trying to navigate through typical edginess and angst, and my weird conflicted feelings with religion and sorting through a lot of the hyprocrisy and weird double standards-slash-misogyny. but uh. that's a rant for a different diary
i'm pretty happy with how this turned out. i couldnt resist putting her in a classic coord...i was inspired by looking through old kaori yuki art! (which prompted me to buy the artbook)
drawing these two after doing art of my other ocs for so long reignited the creative spark for my mea culpa-verse so i am wanting to get the designs for the other penitent brides finalized soon!! but in the meantime, i finally got around to doodling doctor elaine beauclerc last night on the couch while watching season 4 of The Good Place. i really want to draw her with her wife, mercy corvus, so fingers crossed i maintain this good drawing energy!!
bittersweet ♥
a billion years later and im finally drawing something again. this is a drawing for my friend of her oc! im having so much fun and i really like the expression i gave her. bittersweet's personality definitely drew me in (i really love cruel, unhinged villain-aligned fictional women...) i was given free reign with designing her outfit, but i wanted to keep it reminiscent of her og design, alt with fishnets. i'm trying to make it look interesting without too many crazy details (im soo guilty of this which is why i only draw my own ocs a few times)
the hair is taking me a while to shade, but im really enjoying the process. i always have a lot of fun drawing her characters!!
looking through old art and realizing i didnt draw a Hallowtine christmas pic this year!! *cry* maybe i can do it this weekend! i might redraw this picture bc i cant come up with anything new . . .this was a 30-ish minute doodle iirc, so i kinda want to redraw it with actual effort put it. but..lazy...